single life is it should be more fun and freedom? should i take this time to enjoy myself since i can do anything i like and nobody care what i did? i really wish i will enjoy all this time alone staying outside. nobody control or mumble me but... i really feel lonely and bored. now everytime i look at any couple who hold hands walk closely to cinema, eat together, shopping, i really hope i have someone by my side having all this sweet times together. regret??? nah...i choose it to be this way. sitting alone at living hall facing my laptop is already a daily routine job for me everyday after back from work. puffing all the way with my ciggie. i really hope to quit smoking but if i quit i was like nothing else to do to pass my night time.
today i went to gym,swim and sauna. fully utilise my condo's facilities hoping can have some healthy life and pass my time. sigh...i still cant sleep at this hour. bored bored bored... i really cant be alone. i will start thinking of my pass and those sweet memories keep running in my mind. still remember i played tarot card last week. is my very 1st time play this. it seems so true about me. i still remember the card that i get represent my fearness. haiz...it says i scare being alone....IS SO TRUE!!!! what can i do? now i just can focus myself work work and work.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Sunday, November 18, 2007
home sweet home
Here you go...finally i able to upload some photo of my own room :) nice ma?
My bed....
Old wardrobe
Dressing table
My bed....
Old wardrobeDressing table
Momo's birthday 13.11.07
as i promised here are some photos of mocha's birthday. nothing special for him this year. just a simple cake for him :)
Mocha's cake
2 years old Mocha
Mocha's cake
2 years old Mocha
another weekend
is been 18 days i moved to this new condo with my friends. really alot of things happen. stay with my colleagues cum housemate really never one day we are not drunk. everybody takes turn to puke in the bathroom except ME so far :p yesterday we went for a movie BEOWULF. is really alot of people there. the last show there will be 315am. i wonder is there any people will still come to watch movie at that time. our movie ticket is 1250am. meanwhile we waiting for the show we decided to go for a drinks at Laundry. we ordered a BLUE MARGARITA TOWER. yes is a tower... 2 litres..i love the tower so much. wish i can have one at home. still remember we did drink CARLSBERG TOWER before. i love all the towers. hahaha....let me put in some photo of it. we going to be alcoholic soon :p
CARLSBERG TOWER
BLUE MARGARITA TOWER
CARLSBERG TOWER
BLUE MARGARITA TOWER
Sunday, November 11, 2007
sickie est
today woke up still with cough and flu. can consider recover a bit. yesterday after took 7 tablets of pills plus cough syrup...yucks~~~ i not even feel sleepy. get into bed around 1030pm and chit chat with my friend until 12am. wow...i not even feel a bit sleepy :( then my friend has to left me alone in the room. after a while my housemate pass by my room and knocked my door "est, you still awake?" then i opened the door and she came in. we chat for a while in my room then get out of the room have a puff and continued chat until 2am. hahaha... i am wondering is the medicine so CALLED will feel sleepy didnt work on me?
mocha's birthday is coming soon. suppose i will meet him up today to celebrate his birthday. i miss him alot. after i moved here i always dreamt of mocha. sigh...i called my ex see if he can bring mocha over today but....he said he not free then i asked him so when can celebrate birthday for mocha. he just told me he will celebrate for him then hung up :( what does this means? is it celebrate without me? why? god still giving me some test after so many things happened? broke up, moved out, be independant, sick and cant meet mocha? is it enough all this TEST?
mocha's birthday is coming soon. suppose i will meet him up today to celebrate his birthday. i miss him alot. after i moved here i always dreamt of mocha. sigh...i called my ex see if he can bring mocha over today but....he said he not free then i asked him so when can celebrate birthday for mocha. he just told me he will celebrate for him then hung up :( what does this means? is it celebrate without me? why? god still giving me some test after so many things happened? broke up, moved out, be independant, sick and cant meet mocha? is it enough all this TEST?
Saturday, November 10, 2007
rainy saturday morning
i woke up this morning about 10am. wow...i feel like i really no need to sleep. i was like slept at 6am++ this morning.haiz...yesterday after drink half bottle of vodka i still can't sleep. gosh...what happen to me??? yesterday i am having flu and cough. now i feel so sick. my tongue is pain and i am having sore throat as well :(
maybe later i really need to see doctor to get some medicine. i don't have any medicine with me already. all in the rubbish bin when i packing last week. haiz... need to eat pills again :( i really hate to eat pills...yucks~~
tonight i still need to go out to celebrate my friend's birthday. hopefully later i will feel better. if not with the running nose really suffer.
maybe later i really need to see doctor to get some medicine. i don't have any medicine with me already. all in the rubbish bin when i packing last week. haiz... need to eat pills again :( i really hate to eat pills...yucks~~
tonight i still need to go out to celebrate my friend's birthday. hopefully later i will feel better. if not with the running nose really suffer.
Friday, November 9, 2007
sitting at balcony
i was trying to upload my house photo but i do it until very grumpy. then i just press escape and off. haha...i was sitting at balcony alone. haiz...i really can't be alone. start thinking the pass and what's happening now. i really feel so lonely. everybody has their own life...today one of my housemate back to singapore. left me with my another housemate cum colleague cum good friend :p we both really got nothing to do. she is sleeping in the room. i was thinking thinking and thinking until feel want to cry. immediately i grab my left over half bottle of vodka. hopefully after drink i wont think so much. alot of my friends now everytime see me also will call me alcoholic :p
i really sit here for few hours with the laptop in front of me...from the busy evening traffic jam view until the sky turns darker and darker.facing the nice night view from my balcony...what a nice feel if i can get a red wine and enjoy the night with my love ones...sigh...it is a dream of mine but now no meaning for me with the nice kl night view.
i really sit here for few hours with the laptop in front of me...from the busy evening traffic jam view until the sky turns darker and darker.facing the nice night view from my balcony...what a nice feel if i can get a red wine and enjoy the night with my love ones...sigh...it is a dream of mine but now no meaning for me with the nice kl night view.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
10 signs guy is in love
10. You've forgotten your ex
More often than not, a breakup is followed by a significant amount of time spent thinking about your ex and wondering whether or not you made the right decision in going your separate ways. Depending on how long the two of you were together, these doubts can resurface again and again.
Ever since you met this new one, however, the thought of getting back together with your ex is the furthest thing from your mind. Come to think of it, you barely recall what you found so great about her in the first place.
9. You can't stop thinking about her
Instead, you are consumed by thoughts of her. She just pops into your head for no apparent reason, and you wonder if she thinks of you half as much as you think of her. You wonder what she's up to and even consider calling her (but refrain from doing so for fear of looking overeager).
But it gets worse. You're out with your friends and you see something in a shop window and think about how much she would like that particular item, or you notice a poster for a show that she would love, but normally wouldn't even have looked twice at it.
If she's the last thing on your mind before you go to sleep and the first thing on your mind when you wake up - and you've even dreamed of her on a couple of occasions - then you don't really even need to read on to know if you're in love (but should anyway, just to be sure).
8. You care about her
There is a reason why you don't really want to know too much about the chick you had a one-night stand with: You don't love her. When you're in love with a woman, you want to know all about her: who she is, what she thinks, what makes her laugh. You truly care about her and her feelings.
If you truly love a woman, you feel bad if she had a bad day or is upset about something. You don't try to cheer her up because you have to, but because you can't help it.
7. You find her quirks charming
The fact that she carries her passport with her everywhere she goes - just in case - and that, when she's eating, she can't help but construct every forkful so that it's the perfect blend of ingredients fills you with an inexplicable feeling of happiness.
She does and says things that make her different, and you like it. You can't quite put your finger on why, but it doesn't even matter. You like her just the way she is.
6. You have great chemistry
You can't be in love with someone that you have no chemistry with. If you seem to always be on the same wavelength, and think in similar ways, that's a great sign. If you also generate enough heat to set off a five-alarm fire bell, then she is probably someone that you could fall in love with, if you aren't there already.
5. You don't notice other women as much
Did you see that gorgeous blonde that just walked by? What do you mean, "no"?!?
Although you can't help noticing a beautiful woman when one walks by, when you're in love, some of them tend to slip under the radar, while others just pale in comparison to her. Furthermore, you don't seem to be flirting half as much as you used to.
You are slowly realizing that she's often the only woman in the room that matters, and for some reason that suits you just fine.
4. You love spending time with her
This one is pretty obvious but important nonetheless. You look forward to seeing her, and don't care much about what the two of you will be doing. Lately, just going for a walk with her sounds like the best way you could possibly spend an evening.
Furthermore, when you're not together, you miss her and wish you were spending time together
3. You don't mind compromising sometimes
There was a time when it was your way or the highway, but with her it's different. Not that she asks you to, but you don't mind missing a night out with the guys to be with her. And you find yourself trying to incorporate her into your plans or altering them to accommodate her.
You also find yourself not putting up a fight when she wants to go to Shakespeare in the Park. Although your friends find this very amusing, you know that deep down, they wish that they had found a love like yours.
2. Other priorities take a back seat
You used to train religiously, but lately, if she's free for dinner, you don't mind missing a workout. Not only that, but your workaholic tendency of bringing home your work on weekends to get ahead seems a bit excessive to you as of late.
Your ever-important "to do" list seems quite stagnant these days, as being with her always manages to render your other plans and obligations obsolete. What was it that you absolutely had to do by four o'clock again?
1. You start thinking about the future and she's in it
It used to be that the future with a woman meant your date on Saturday night, but with this woman, the future seems infinite. Not only do you plan to see her this weekend, but you want to see her a year from now as well.
When planning your next vacation, you know you want to spend it with her, and not a random beach bunny you happen to meet while you're there. And when you get an invitation to a wedding that takes place three months from now, you ask her to be your date without thinking that it's too far away to tell if you'll still be together.
She's the one
If you are currently dating a woman that makes you act in any of the ways mentioned above, then you, my friend, are seriously falling for her. It's time to put away the little black book for a while and enjoy the ride.
More often than not, a breakup is followed by a significant amount of time spent thinking about your ex and wondering whether or not you made the right decision in going your separate ways. Depending on how long the two of you were together, these doubts can resurface again and again.
Ever since you met this new one, however, the thought of getting back together with your ex is the furthest thing from your mind. Come to think of it, you barely recall what you found so great about her in the first place.
9. You can't stop thinking about her
Instead, you are consumed by thoughts of her. She just pops into your head for no apparent reason, and you wonder if she thinks of you half as much as you think of her. You wonder what she's up to and even consider calling her (but refrain from doing so for fear of looking overeager).
But it gets worse. You're out with your friends and you see something in a shop window and think about how much she would like that particular item, or you notice a poster for a show that she would love, but normally wouldn't even have looked twice at it.
If she's the last thing on your mind before you go to sleep and the first thing on your mind when you wake up - and you've even dreamed of her on a couple of occasions - then you don't really even need to read on to know if you're in love (but should anyway, just to be sure).
8. You care about her
There is a reason why you don't really want to know too much about the chick you had a one-night stand with: You don't love her. When you're in love with a woman, you want to know all about her: who she is, what she thinks, what makes her laugh. You truly care about her and her feelings.
If you truly love a woman, you feel bad if she had a bad day or is upset about something. You don't try to cheer her up because you have to, but because you can't help it.
7. You find her quirks charming
The fact that she carries her passport with her everywhere she goes - just in case - and that, when she's eating, she can't help but construct every forkful so that it's the perfect blend of ingredients fills you with an inexplicable feeling of happiness.
She does and says things that make her different, and you like it. You can't quite put your finger on why, but it doesn't even matter. You like her just the way she is.
6. You have great chemistry
You can't be in love with someone that you have no chemistry with. If you seem to always be on the same wavelength, and think in similar ways, that's a great sign. If you also generate enough heat to set off a five-alarm fire bell, then she is probably someone that you could fall in love with, if you aren't there already.
5. You don't notice other women as much
Did you see that gorgeous blonde that just walked by? What do you mean, "no"?!?
Although you can't help noticing a beautiful woman when one walks by, when you're in love, some of them tend to slip under the radar, while others just pale in comparison to her. Furthermore, you don't seem to be flirting half as much as you used to.
You are slowly realizing that she's often the only woman in the room that matters, and for some reason that suits you just fine.
4. You love spending time with her
This one is pretty obvious but important nonetheless. You look forward to seeing her, and don't care much about what the two of you will be doing. Lately, just going for a walk with her sounds like the best way you could possibly spend an evening.
Furthermore, when you're not together, you miss her and wish you were spending time together
3. You don't mind compromising sometimes
There was a time when it was your way or the highway, but with her it's different. Not that she asks you to, but you don't mind missing a night out with the guys to be with her. And you find yourself trying to incorporate her into your plans or altering them to accommodate her.
You also find yourself not putting up a fight when she wants to go to Shakespeare in the Park. Although your friends find this very amusing, you know that deep down, they wish that they had found a love like yours.
2. Other priorities take a back seat
You used to train religiously, but lately, if she's free for dinner, you don't mind missing a workout. Not only that, but your workaholic tendency of bringing home your work on weekends to get ahead seems a bit excessive to you as of late.
Your ever-important "to do" list seems quite stagnant these days, as being with her always manages to render your other plans and obligations obsolete. What was it that you absolutely had to do by four o'clock again?
1. You start thinking about the future and she's in it
It used to be that the future with a woman meant your date on Saturday night, but with this woman, the future seems infinite. Not only do you plan to see her this weekend, but you want to see her a year from now as well.
When planning your next vacation, you know you want to spend it with her, and not a random beach bunny you happen to meet while you're there. And when you get an invitation to a wedding that takes place three months from now, you ask her to be your date without thinking that it's too far away to tell if you'll still be together.
She's the one
If you are currently dating a woman that makes you act in any of the ways mentioned above, then you, my friend, are seriously falling for her. It's time to put away the little black book for a while and enjoy the ride.
Monday, November 5, 2007
If a man wants you
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve.
then heck no, you can’t “be friends.”
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.”
You’ll be mad at yourself.
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.
He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man’s behavior.
Change comes from within.
Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else’s man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending… compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships… there is nothing cute about baggage… deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you… a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals… look for someone complimentary…not supplementary.
Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes… when a man always know where you are,and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies….. You’ll make someone SMILE,another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT……
If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve.
then heck no, you can’t “be friends.”
A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.
Don’t settle.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don’t stay because you think “it will get better.”
You’ll be mad at yourself.
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.
He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man’s behavior.
Change comes from within.
Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are…even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else’s man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending… compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships… there is nothing cute about baggage… deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you… a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals… look for someone complimentary…not supplementary.
Dating is fun…even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes… when a man always know where you are,and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies….. You’ll make someone SMILE,another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT……
Sunday, November 4, 2007
updates
it's been a while didnt update my blog. my new place dont have any internet connection yet. now i am at ikano sitting at starbucks to update my things.hehe...phew..long time didnt login facebook,didnt check mail 54 mails i have.walao....somemore long time didnt kick my friend :p i will revenge when i have connection at home. wait for me ya~~
i took leave since thursday just to clean my house and move all the big furniture. yesterday finally have a proper bed to sleep. wuhuuu...i collected my curtain already yesterday. want to upload photos but how sad when moving that time i throw away my software cd. now i have the cable but cant upload :( hope you all be patient la. i took some photo already. let me find the way to get the software first.
i took leave since thursday just to clean my house and move all the big furniture. yesterday finally have a proper bed to sleep. wuhuuu...i collected my curtain already yesterday. want to upload photos but how sad when moving that time i throw away my software cd. now i have the cable but cant upload :( hope you all be patient la. i took some photo already. let me find the way to get the software first.
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