Wednesday, October 17, 2007

why you still controlling my life?

since we already choose to be in separate way then why you still bugging me and controlling me? i feel so suffer...can you please stop scolding me? i really feel so sick and i am trying to have my own life. what can i do now? i dont want to argue anymore....

i have already told my mum about this matter. she non stop calling me yesterday. ask me this and that. if can i wont choose to be like that. honestly i am not that tough. i need someone to be with me, to care of me, to pamper me but what can i do? just because of other people i need to stay back? i dont want my life just end up like this. even after 5 years i still feel insecure. can anyone tell me how long i still need to wait? what if after 2 years still the same? i am selfish...i cant wait for miracle to happen.

18 comments:

Karen M said...
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Karen M said...

You can be firmed and tell him off. If this is really what you want, you should stick to your own decision and stay put. If needed, you have to be bad to him. That way, the both of you will be free from this.

As i've been telling you on and on, ask yourself - is this what you want? Think properly and decide what's best for yourself. Then work towards it. You do not need to explain anything to anyone but yourself.

Do what's best for yourself, babe. We'll be here for you. *muah*

P/S: I might not be able to give you good advise at times, but I am always a good listener. Call me if you need someone to talk to.

Belik said...

Yeah! Stand firm and be tough! You have to let him know that you can survive without him. If he knows you like this, he will take advantage of it and try to make your heart soft and you will end up being with him again. Do what you want.... Be a real maaa.... GIRL! Yeah!!

Anonymous said...

I always believe in listening to both parties. But sadly, I dont know your 'other half', so I'm not on your side either on this matter. My general comment, no one is controlling your life, only you yourself! Think about it, there are no such thing in this world that all blame goes to one. Ridiculuos! Both parties have the responsibilities to workout the r'ship, for good and for better. Even though the r'ship doesn't workout, both have to be blame too! Not one! Whatever decission you make, you have to bear the consequences, friends will be there when you need them, family will be there if you want them to be there too. You have go thru such a long r'ship, don't you think it's a waste? You sure it's all his problem? Don't you think maybe you have a role to play in this relationship? Man will always mature later, but eventhough some in their 30's also not mature!What more if there are in their 40's even 50's you will be suprise! At the end of the day don't blame others, THINK! BE WISE! & GROW UP!

Anon#2

Anonymous said...

anon#2 : understand what you trying to say. i did appreciate him and we try to workout to be together thru the life but as i said i am being selfish this time. just hope this matter will end up be a good things.

Belik said...

Anon#2: Not reading my blog anymore huh? Hahahahaha... Are you some kindda love doctor?

Anonymous said...

Selfish is one think, blame on others is another thing. Which means both are different thing. As I was reading your reply, I sense that it could be a 3rd party involve?

Anon#2

Belik,
I'm not a love doctor nor I'm someone who knows a lot of things in life BUT if I share what I go thru in life, I bet all of you will keep your mouth shut and dare not comment any sigle thing anymore.

Anon#2

i said...

Hey Esther, didn't expect to read this on my first visit to your blog. I guess I'm surprised.

But anyway, if you are at peace with your decision, that's all that matters. No regrets. Life is too short for that.

Anonymous said...

cool down cool down~~~i thought i am the one who having fever. seems like both of you more hot than me :p

anon#2 : nothing is fair in this world. maybe you dont know the whole story my dear. we separate in peace. just that we all need time to settle down. thanks for your "hot" comment.

serendipity : agreed with you life is short. maybe is really a good start for me and him :)

cheers~~~

Anonymous said...

Well; it's good that we all know nothing is fair AND yes we need to work hard for the things we want!=)
Sorry but to be frank; after 5years of relationship and on the 6th year you guys rock about who doesn't fulfill whose need? Hmmph; I thought couple made planning during the 2years..no?

-Anon#2-

Anonymous said...

anon#2 : as i said we dont know each other that's why very hard for you to undersand the whole picture of this. for my real friend they all now stand by my side to support me because they know the whole story of my life. thanks anyway for your advise.

cheers~~

Anonymous said...

Like your comment in Bilek's blog =) Blog is to share things ~ =)

Anon#2

Belik said...

Anon#2: Sometimes ppl just need to have some privacy just for themself and wouldn't like to share it out to the whole world just like that.... As for me, I just shared everything out because I think everyone should know how cruel a world can be.... towards me at least..... And correction, it's BELIK not BILEK...

Anonymous said...

Belik: Er your meaning what est shared is not private enough? In your case; it's not critical. At least your belongings is still with you? See; you're actually moving already~

Est: I know it's the hardest time in your life from A-Z. You can actually think to rent your house out and move back to your parents? By that you save some $$ for your car!? Anyway; just a piece of opinion...

Anon#2

Anonymous said...

anon#2 : thanks for your opinion. of coz i can move back to my parents house but meanwhile i saving money to buy a car...how am i going to work? no work means no money means no car. sigh....

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